There are a lot of questions that I neither pretend nor expect to have answers to: why we lost our baby; why we were blessed with another child so quickly afterward; why we can walk and swim, but not fly (I’m serious); the list goes on.   Today, when we honor Ethan’s due date, there […]

Had I considered the ways I know myself to deal with stressful or painful situations, I should have seen my seemingly preemptive breakdown this week coming. This list of evidence looks ridiculous out of context, but unfortunately, it is all true.   I’ve been watching Cupcake Wars. Mindless television is an escape for me. I […]

Until last week, I felt that I was making steady progress on the healing front. I could talk about Ethan without crying. I was sleeping well. I was excited about our new baby.   I started to wonder when I would stop mentioning Ethan in conversation. It’s been my habit when someone asks me how […]